Insivible

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile
She never noticed how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything to me
And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, yeah
There's a fire inside of you that can't help but shine through
But she's never gonna see the light, no matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be
And I just want show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible
Like shadows in the faded light, oh, we're invisible
I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize
And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
Baby, let me love you, let me want you
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, oh, yeah
She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile



- this song is so sad okay! and somehow it relates to me :(

Aiyah no suitable title for this.

I decided to remove the super anger post and pasted it in the private blog.

At least I felt better after typing everything out.

I did spill a little beans on my facebook status. Lawl. Go stalk! XDD.

Only you

can. :)


Honestly, I'm not really a fan of Archuleta. I prefer Cook then. And I favour non of Archuleta's songs. Why? Imagine EVERYDAY in school/class I practically hear people sing his songs until my ears felt like falling off my head. No offense, but yeah, it's THAT bad.

Or maybe... I just don't wanna end up die hard fans like them.. or.. DENISE TAN JUNE LYNN HAHA JOKE JOKE. :)) I still prefer Cook til now, ;)

But anyways, this is the ONLY song I like from him, which is You Can. It's a great song, honestly.

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come
To those who wait

YAAAAAM SENNGGG!

I was talking to Dinnish until we reached some part about being thankful or something, and he told me to give him an Amen.

Instead, I gave him a Ya Allah, and he said I PHAILED. It was suppose to be Alhamdulillahhh. Har har. How was I suppose to know.

Anyway, not really important la but I had a great laugh about it.

For today's weird customer, I had a table of Sami-s. All the way from Thailand one don't pray pray! Ok no pun intended. Pray wtf.

So, I had to take their orders la, and I had to give them the menus. Like, open it for them and hand it over. it's like some kind of courtesy and essential process of taking menus.

Ok anyway, Before I could even pass it to them, the woman (part of the Sami gang la, but she isn't bald. They're just in the same group) stopped me and she was like, "Eeeeeehh! Cannot cannot, this wan cannot. Just put it here, he will take himself!!" I was like.. "uh, okay then."

So fine. Then they ordered some rice and Steamed Chicken la, when their food's ready, I had to serve them kan. So as usual I'd take the plate and put it in front of them. but then the woman stopped me again! She was like, "ehhhh! Nevermind nevermind. This wan just put here only!" I was like uh okay again. And I was watching the woman and others, they kneeled down, took the food plate and sembah to them the food. My jaw literally dropped, and I was WTH-ing.

And I told Miss Yanie "Miss miss, tengok belakang!! cepatttt."

And she gave a weird look, and say, "Kalau dekat tempat dia takpe lah jugak. Ni kat restoran pun nak macam tu. Adeh."

LAWL.

And I wasn't allowed to touch anything when serving them. Something like tak suci ke apa lah I don't know.

But I am clean one lor! Sanitize. :)


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Got screwed by my boss today because I asked her to release me early to lepak with friends. intially it was just Justin and Brandon (kot) and their friends la and they ditched him!! Pfft.

So it was just Justin.

Fun lah, but now penat kot.

Afternoon shift tomorrow! :)

But the bad thing abt afternoon shifts is.. I habis at 10. :( which means I'll be reaching home at... 11? Die T_T

The truth about my job

I think I am starting to hate it more, and I am getting tired-er everyday.

I have about 7 alarms, and it rings every 5-10 minutes. after the 4th, I totally ignored everything and went on sleeping, until I woke up, and to my horror, it was almost 10am! I panicked like hell, I ran out of my room, grabbing my towel and showered.

I left my home just before 10.30.

Oh yeah, I had morning shift today, which means I start at 11.

Thank God the road was freaking clear, I reached there in exactly 10 minutes! Phew.

So, I went there with my bare face and untied hair. I did everything in 10 minutes, and I punched in about 10.50+. heeeee.

But anyways, I didn't had anything for breakfast. I was really really tired and hungry, I couldn't stand up straight.

I was suppose to be the doorperson until I couldn't even concentrate because I was tired, sleepy and hungry. I stood out there like a dying leaf, can you imagine that? gosh.

So Miss Yanie asked Miss Aisyah to be the doorperson instead. :\

After my late lunch was worse. I had a little bit more than I should, and result.. I became sleepier than ever.

You know how it feels like after having a big meal, and feeling sleepy after that? Yeah, I feeling like that.

On top of that, there were hardly any customers also today. I can sleep while serving drinks :\

I think my hunger+tiredness+sleepiness makes people think that I'm getting lazier. D:

I am not! I am very dedicated (not) to my job. At least I really do things wan loh! But I think it's PMS la because I've been getting headaches, nausea, stomach cramps (sure got one), mood swings and all lah. Haih


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My shift's in the afternoon tomorrow. But I'm still going to TS early to do some book shopping.

Since I started working, I've been a regular visitor @ Borders. And yea, obviously reading a lot too. That way is free. :D

Tear drops on my guitar.

I can really relate to that.

LOL

Rant post.

Do not proceed if you don't want to.

But I haven't been complaining in days. Or weeks.

And I just realized I've been such an angel. :P I hardly curse and solemnly mean it. Except for just now, that was my first! XD

I feel like complaining. I've been bottling up my angers so much I can feel I'm about to explode. But somehow everytime I get angry and pissed, I will somehow forget about it half an hour later, or soon.

Why ah.. because, A) I get to go home already. B) I have my friends/sister visiting me at work.

I'm starting to get really used to working already, and thinking about the money I'd get and the thing I want keeps me alive n strong everyday. There are times (most of the time actually) I feel like quitting and just sit at home and chill out, lepak here and there. But I choose not to. Even JH said that "Usually ppl at your age will enjoy the holi kao kao. but why la you go work."

It's because I want it. And it is yet to come (please do not spoil my surprise for my dear readers though all my friends knows the IT).

Eventhough I hate my job to the max, I feel like murdering myself or faint on purpose, or even paying someone to kidnap me for fun and for real, I am dedicated to my job (cewah), and I do it properly.

If you already have a job, please lah, don't be such a sour grape. You're the one who wants the job, so do it properly!

I have many things to talk about actually, but I rather not because I am already not in talking terms with this person and I wudn't wanna make it worse -_______________- But seriously, I feel sort of regret working. because if I knew this would happen, I wouldn't even have the thought of inviting him, sorry to say, but yeah. I don't expect anyone to quit.

All I'm asking for is, if you have a freckin job, do it properly.

I hate it when the restaurant's busy, and I have tons of tables to clean and set, and customers on the other hand asking for bills, refills and such. While the other is just "busy" doing other petty stuff. Come on lah.

Aih, I really don't want to talk about this now.

So...